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Sangamon Taylor ([personal profile] toxicspiderman) wrote in [community profile] damned_institute2010-12-18 10:35 pm
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Night 53: Disciplinary Therapy Corridor

[from here]

"Of the times I've been up here voluntarily, a couple have gotten out before we got up here. Usually we have to cool our heels for a while." He shrugged, and then started unearthing unpleasant memories. The investigation pulled up nothing except the sneaking suspicion he could still smell SLUD-induced vomit in the cracks in the floor. "The other time, fuck if I know how long. Spider raided the drugs and the janitor's closet before passing out here."

"Don't try to kick these doors open. You'll break your leg. They're less normal than the rest of this place. The Frankensteins don't ever show on this side." A lot of people forgot that Frankenstein was the mad scientist, not the monster he created. Igor had achieved a cross-media cultural blitzkrieg that no one confused him with Abby Normal's. Just the top brass and their monster. Middle-level management strictly not liable. "Transporter doors, staff only. Have to be." He didn't have to add not to open them. Mello wasn't an idiot, even if he was getting way too into this for an impartial observer.

[identity profile] swornandbroken.livejournal.com 2010-12-19 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
Mello spared S.T. a fraction of a second's glance, half scowl, half puzzlement; decided the Tootsie Roll comment wasn't worth fully deciphering, as the sense was clear enough. The rest he noted, but mostly willfully ignored, and strode past S.T. to start pounding on doors with the butt of the flashlight. He would have used both hands, if they'd both been functional.

Of course they'd use doors that didn't go where they ought; he should have thought of that ages ago, and hadn't. That night when the prisoners had been subjected to them seemed more and more like the Head Arsehole rubbing their faces in it: Look, I can warp reality whenever I want. What can you do but take it?

It wasn't going to be tonight, but Mello's resolve to show exactly what he could do had never been greater. It gripped him like a fist around his guts, like a desperation he hadn't felt since that awful day five years ago, which would have counted as the worst in his life before Landel's. Do something, do anything, even if it's wrong, only move.

He knew damn well the doors wouldn't budge until... Until it was over behind them. Still clung to the crazy hope that Matt would hear the banging, know someone was out here, maybe even draw strength from it, if he still could. And at that thought, Mello let loose a kick in spite of it all, jarring his very bones against the unyielding door, the middle one, as it happened. It hurt like fuckall, but was weirdly satisfying all the same.

"Yeah, I know," he muttered, in S.T.'s approximate direction. "Had to try."

[identity profile] swornandbroken.livejournal.com 2010-12-19 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
"I could use a fucking grenade," Mello said, though, honestly, he doubted it would have done anything but make the two of them extremely unhappy.

He still finished his circuit of the hall, rapping hard on the last couple of doors with the torch, more out of sheer bloody-mindedness than any hope of getting through.

"And thanks, but no thanks." He had better than aspirin in his room, and had deliberately not taken any. He'd thought he'd need his wits about him for an entirely different mission, but this one was no less important. "I'd need higher-octane, or I'd need nothing, and I went with nothing."

This was more than he'd usually admit, but Mello approved of S.T., though he couldn't condone what he did, or rather, failed to do, with the knowledge he'd surely amassed. Besides, ever since that blond kid had pelted towards him, he'd felt like a bruise, everything hurting and too close to the surface, the iron control he'd fought for years to gain deserting him. He stalked back over to S.T., let himself slump against the wall opposite him, looking at the ceiling, as if that could somehow make what he knew he was about to say not count.

"My best friend's in one of those rooms. Not from here, from home." He was sure the significance of that wouldn't have been lost on any of his fellow prisoners, much less this guy.
Edited 2010-12-19 06:36 (UTC)

[identity profile] swornandbroken.livejournal.com 2010-12-20 05:55 am (UTC)(link)
You couldn't have stopped them. Hearing it didn't help. Mello had known it all along, even as he'd struggled to believe otherwise. The blame still rested on him. Without him, Matt would be at home, safely anonymous, keeping his head down, like he'd done for years. Mello still didn't know what exact criteria they used to select prisoners, but he was pretty damn sure a random hacker who'd once gone to a school for geniuses didn't fit them. More importantly, Matt would be alive if Mello had never called him, and though Mello had sworn he never would, if he remembered any of this when he got back, he had a sick, lingering feeling it wouldn't make a difference.

He noted S.T.'s run-down of his portable pharmacy with a nod. If Mello had known he'd be coming up here, and why, he might have swung by Matt's room to grab a pack of smokes for him. Might have. More likely, he still would've made a pointless dash.

"Do I look like I brought entertainment?" he snapped. He clicked the torch on, played it over each door. Nothing. Clicked it back off.

"Who's your roommate?" Someone with an intelligence background, assuming Mello hadn't already met him, would be very useful to know. If nothing else, it was a distraction from the silence that sat heavier in this hallway than anywhere else in the Institute, from the images he was trying to keep his mind from conjuring up of what that silence masked.

[identity profile] swornandbroken.livejournal.com 2010-12-27 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
"I had this shite group therapy session today. Asked about my old roommate, and all I got was the party line about being 'released.' Shame, really. He looked dumb, but he wasn't." Mello hadn't had a chance to find out what they'd done to Emmett. Now that he'd run into his share of brainwash victims, he'd bet that was it. Unlike Matt, Emmett could fight.

Mello clicked the flashlight on and did another sweep across the doors. If S.T. was going to be annoyed by it, he'd just have to deal. The second any of the doors opened, Mello was going to be there. He knew he wasn't doing a great job accepting that all he could do was wait until that moment, but he couldn't have cared less. He was saving the pacing until standing still became unbearable, though. He gave that about five more minutes.

"I'm on my third roommate now." In slightly more than a week, but that appeared to be relatively normal. "Roommate number two had Javert's notes about this bullshit." He gestured in the direction of the doors with the flashlight. "Have you seen them?"

[identity profile] swornandbroken.livejournal.com 2010-12-30 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
Mello's smile didn't reach his eyes, but he did smile. He should've known S.T. had had a hand in those. He also had a good idea which case study referred to him. Playing around with one's genes was pretty damn specific.

"I don't have them on me. I was going to offer you a look if you hadn't seen them." To solidify their not-exactly-alliance, for one thing, but also because S.T. was coming at the problem from a different angle, and while Mello preferred working alone, he'd also learnt to tell when cooperating would get him what he wanted faster.

"What do you think about the guy who got taken twice?" Either that case didn't belong in the list at all, or it was an anomaly worth knowing more about.

[identity profile] swornandbroken.livejournal.com 2011-01-05 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
Mello nodded, and clicked the flashlight on for another check, sweeping the beam over the people he didn't know as if they weren't there. Poor bastards in the same situation as him, most likely. As long as they stayed out of his way, he'd stay out of theirs.

"The effects fall into two or three different categories. Either they amount to ongoing torture, or they have some kind of side benefit. In at least one instance, they're nonexistent, or they wore off. Presumably, in those cases, the original trauma was considered sufficient." Only S.T. could have said which category his experience fell into. Mello thought it was probably the first, like his own. All this was leaving out the one patient who was an exception to much of the usual MO, the one Javert had considered an unreliable source, but whose second trip up here sounded more typical. It was something to look into, later.

The information Javert had gathered wasn't where Mello would have focused his efforts. He cared very little about how varied the constellation of tortures the Institute was capable of inflicting was; they were so tailored to the individual victim as to be almost useless in helping him undo his own. Another information trawl through the victims who were still here would be worthwhile, if he could get past that damn reluctance to talk about it. Understandable, but annoying. Past annoying and into infuriating was how he'd have to give up a little about what had happened to him, if only by drawing a pretty clear path for inference, to find out more about the areas that did interest him.

"When you were in there," he said, low, "did you get a look at the doctor?"

[identity profile] swornandbroken.livejournal.com 2011-01-07 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
Mello made a beeline for the door when it opened, right behind the kids, but backed off when he got a look at who was inside. He looked back to S.T. and shook his head briefly: Not my person.

That meant they were... finishing up. Mello had been trying not to think about it, mostly successfully distracted, but now it felt as if the wall he'd sealed all those thoughts up behind were starting to crack at the foundation. Would he even be able to do anything for Matt? It meant going back into one of those rooms, which was going to be swept clean of evidence, somehow, by the time door opened, but was still the site, or its copy, of the worst night of his life.

In defiance of that uncertainty and reluctance, he walked along to the far end of the hall and worked his way back, trying each of the remaining doors in turn, rapping each with the flashlight. Nothing. He had to pace, now, a circuit of a few feet back and forth in front of S.T. For anyone who came through here at this point, eavesdropping would be the last thing on their mind.

So the doctor for S.T. hadn't been anyone he knew, unless he wasn't saying, but that seemed unlikely. Generic representation of what he hated the most? Maybe they hadn't had a specific one handy, Mello thought, and almost let a dry laugh escape at that.

"Exactly. The bastards in there aren't pretending they don't have our real info. They want us to know they do." He would've bet, though, that they made less of a point of it for people who weren't in the habit of hiding all their personal data. "And they want to dress up the torture as something else. Be a better person, whether you like it or not, only they twist 'better' as far as they fucking can. Every benefit they end up giving has a price."

[identity profile] swornandbroken.livejournal.com 2011-01-09 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
"Heh." A bark of a laugh, almost, short and acid, and Mello shook his head. "That'd leave too much to chance."

He wasn't going to explain that, for him, the lead-up had been just as bad as the actual 'treatment,' which had certainly been part of the point of doing it that way: let him stew in his helplessness, give him ample time to turn over in his mind what he could have done to prevent it. Let him conclude that there wasn't anything he could have done. Mello was sure they'd played S.T. the same way. Lab rats, the assembly-line impersonality of it all, the bland face of someone playing god not for ego's sake, but all in a day's work. Yeah, he could understand how that would get to the guy.

He took another look at the row of doors. Fuck's sake.

"What they do in there? It's the real point of this place, or part of it." But a piece only, to a picture the prisoners hadn't even been allowed to glimpse. Mello still had to wonder, resenting it all the while, if his certainty that they never would were the product of the bugs or the sane reaction to an impossible situation. Has to be the bugs, he told himself. You're the one who, when you're blocked into a corner, brings the goddamn walls down, remember?

[identity profile] moral-liberty.livejournal.com 2011-01-03 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
[From here (http://community.livejournal.com/damned/1023910.html?thread=75083430#t75083430).]

The hallway was not remarkable, but Kaworu could now place it, at least within the scope of his own experience. Within one of these doors, there was a small room. In it, there were the remains of an entry plug. False or genuine, it didn't matter. It was true in his mind, and that was what gave it substance.

Without hesitation, he went to the first door. It was jarring when it didn't move. He recognized in himself what he could only think was fear, or something close to it.
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[personal profile] hasnomeaning 2011-01-03 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
Movements were noted quietly behind her. The others filing in and experiencing the scenery. Rei remembered the feeling of before, of coming to this place because of a pull within her--the knowledge of familiarity near to her, far ahead. Here, there was a close similarity. Something like that. But nothing as clear as there had been before. Rei understood Ikari was nearby. But she did not know where he was.

So Kaworu Nagisa moved without hesitation to try a nearby door. The sound of its locked nature echoed briefly around the room, and Ayanami walked further in, stepping to the next door and trying it. Nothing gave. This one, too, was locked.
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[personal profile] sainted 2011-01-04 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
Stefan stood at the mouth of the corridor for a moment, staring after the backs of the children who made their way inside, lingering in particular on the pale, messy hair which marked Kaworu out as clear as if it was daylight. What did he mean, talking of fear like that? Could he read minds, like Edward? Maybe, but it wasn't much of a stretch to think Stefan was afraid — but not for the obvious reasons. Not for himself. Even last night, he hadn't been afraid for his own safety.

Or maybe Kaworu was thinking exactly along the lines he was. They were all here in search of someone. However, Stefan was the only one here for Elena, and he moved finally to the doors on the opposite side of the hall. Still keeping an eye out for any possible danger to the three he was with, Stefan tried each door in turn. He even put his full strength into it, or at least whatever had been left to him. Nothing.

And if Elena, or anyone else, was behind any of these doors, he couldn't hear it.

"How did you get in last time?" he asked after the fourth locked door, sounding frustrated.

[identity profile] lookitmemama.livejournal.com 2011-01-05 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
Asuka didn't make a sound (being a leader of sorts came with sacrifices), but that didn't mean she couldn't roll her eyes at Kaworu's sudden bout of philosophical drivel. What was there to be afraid of? There were four of them, and three of them dismembered monsters for a living. They didn't have their evangelions anymore for that, but the pilot was still confident that numbers would ultimately win the battle. Plus, Kaworu was oh so holy; he could probably neutralize monsters with his powers, especially if it was the only way through to Shinji.

It occurred to her that if the albino angel was this "devoted" to wonder boy, Kaworu would be a good bodyguard during the nights. Not that she would ever sink so low as to ignore the fact he was an angel, but a good leader needed to look at the big picture and keep all his or her options open. That's all.

Passing Stefan, Asuka ignored his question and continued the seemingly futile assembly line that Rei and Kaworu had started. "You idiots are hopeless. Let me do it!"

She set her baseball bat against the wall beside the fifth door and tested the doorknob. Locked, of course. But unlike the others, the redhead wouldn't give up so easily. Stepping back, Asuka raised her leg and began kicking the door around the lock. She got the shack outside open this way, it would work eventually!

But eventually was becoming increasingly distant. Her leg was going numb from the tremors running up her foot. Panting from the exertion, she lowered her leg and glared at the stubborn door. It was about the time she lifted her left leg to finish what the right had started that she heard a mechanical click which made her pause.

"What the...?" Hoping against hope, Asuka tried the door handle tentatively and guffawed victoriously when it turned. "See? Perseverance always wins in the end!" The door swung open slowly and Asuka was greeted by the painful brightness of an overhead light. It reflected down on a familiar shape that she longed to reacquaint herself with.

[identity profile] moral-liberty.livejournal.com 2011-01-05 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Kaworu had moved to eventually stand behind Asuka, but with distance still between them. Where she felt anger or frustration, Kaworu could only now identify the tension that had been with him since he had realized Shinji was gone. When he stayed out of her range, away from her wrath, he felt more comfortable. Kaworu watched her strain against the door, which only relented of its own volition after her assault ended. They had no impact on the things that would pass here.

Kaworu responded, or his body did, with an audible gasp he could not control. The door revealed what he had perhaps already pictured in his head, and his powerlessness and desire for distance were forgotten. He recognized the shapes inside too easily. The sharp lines of what was intended to be an entry plug. The unsettling bright light highlighted it, and neither the light nor the tube belonged here. All of it was unwelcome, and yet, Kaworu didn't hesitate. He moved past Asuka, even brushing against her as he angled for the space between her and the door, but the moment of contact was gone too quickly. Too quickly for him to wonder about her distaste. How she might be disgusted by him, or by the way he ran to Shinji now.

[To here (http://community.livejournal.com/damned/1022236.html?thread=75139612#t75139612).]