Demyx grinned at Soubi. He wasn't really sure what the man's reasons were for wanting that, but so long as he did, he was happy. He just hoped Soubi could be happy about it, too, although he was starting to get the impression that his roommate wasn't really a happy guy by nature.
He couldn't help frowning at Soubi's suggestion for the Organization. "I guess I could've," he said dubiously. "Maybe. But why? I don't really like controlling people. Besides, I guess someone who was in control of other people - they ought to know what's best for the people they're in charge of, right? I'm not that smart."
He almost recoiled - mostly in surprise - when Soubi reached to rest a hand on his chest, but stopped himself and stayed still as his roommate felt for a heartbeat that wasn't there. He'd never really understood how their bodies worked without hearts - and none of the Nobodies of the Organization had ever really tried to find out; it was unknown anatomical territory and even Vexen wasn't the type to pry there when there were so few of them if something went wrong - so he couldn't say how he functioned without it, but he knew the heart wasn't there. Aside from his breathing, and perhaps the occasional twitch of muscle, Soubi wouldn't feel anything at all.
He watched his roommate closely, eyes taking on a more observant look as Soubi smiled. Yeah, he was starting to get a feel for the guy now...on some level he must be really unhappy. Only unhappy people could think not having a heart was a good thing. "No, you wouldn't," he said quietly. "If you're sad or lonely or unhappy, it sounds like a great thing to not have a heart to hurt, to not be able to feel those things anymore. I'll never really be unhappy again, I guess, even if I pretend to be 'cause it makes me seem more normal. But I'll never be happy, either. And even if we can't feel anything else - we always feel hollow. Like there's always something missing that we can never get back. Some of the Nobodies - the first six of us - they kind of chose to give their hearts to the darkness. They were scientists and it was part of their experiment. But the rest of us...we didn't get a choice. It's not one anybody would make. Even the ones who chose to become Nobodies want to go back to the way they were before; that's what our Organization is for. We want to have our hearts back." He paused. "I died before that could happen, I think. If you can call it dying when we weren't really, you know, alive. I guess they brought me back so I could be here, but I don't think I'll be able to get my heart back in here, so it doesn't make much difference."
Re: M76 [Demyx]
He couldn't help frowning at Soubi's suggestion for the Organization. "I guess I could've," he said dubiously. "Maybe. But why? I don't really like controlling people. Besides, I guess someone who was in control of other people - they ought to know what's best for the people they're in charge of, right? I'm not that smart."
He almost recoiled - mostly in surprise - when Soubi reached to rest a hand on his chest, but stopped himself and stayed still as his roommate felt for a heartbeat that wasn't there. He'd never really understood how their bodies worked without hearts - and none of the Nobodies of the Organization had ever really tried to find out; it was unknown anatomical territory and even Vexen wasn't the type to pry there when there were so few of them if something went wrong - so he couldn't say how he functioned without it, but he knew the heart wasn't there. Aside from his breathing, and perhaps the occasional twitch of muscle, Soubi wouldn't feel anything at all.
He watched his roommate closely, eyes taking on a more observant look as Soubi smiled. Yeah, he was starting to get a feel for the guy now...on some level he must be really unhappy. Only unhappy people could think not having a heart was a good thing. "No, you wouldn't," he said quietly. "If you're sad or lonely or unhappy, it sounds like a great thing to not have a heart to hurt, to not be able to feel those things anymore. I'll never really be unhappy again, I guess, even if I pretend to be 'cause it makes me seem more normal. But I'll never be happy, either. And even if we can't feel anything else - we always feel hollow. Like there's always something missing that we can never get back. Some of the Nobodies - the first six of us - they kind of chose to give their hearts to the darkness. They were scientists and it was part of their experiment. But the rest of us...we didn't get a choice. It's not one anybody would make. Even the ones who chose to become Nobodies want to go back to the way they were before; that's what our Organization is for. We want to have our hearts back." He paused. "I died before that could happen, I think. If you can call it dying when we weren't really, you know, alive. I guess they brought me back so I could be here, but I don't think I'll be able to get my heart back in here, so it doesn't make much difference."