damned_institute | Day 29: Sun Room

It was with some relief that Yuuhi awoke the next morning, in his own bed, sore and tired and achy. He would've slept more had they let him, his face down in the pillow, away from all the others and their questions and their concern. He didn't want to see them, but he managed a little smile when the nurse came in and didn't object when she lead him out into the open hallway that had been splattered with blood, plenty of it his, just last night.

The Chapel or the Sun Room? He felt he had good reason not to be terribly religious and had a feeling he wouldn't be very welcome there anyway. The Sun Room would be nice though. It was bright and cheery and he could always doodle or write notes on the community board if he'd nothing better to do. Besides, the nurse was kind enough to let him take a book with him.

He found a seat on one of the couches, far from the entrance and seated himself in the far corner, legs scrunched up against his chest so he only took up one of the cushions. He opened up where he'd left off, fingers carefully turning the worn pages of Dorothy and the Wizard in Oz.

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"Yes, it was very nice to meet you," Shadow said, giving her a nod. "If we discover anything about the birds we'll let you know."

Her leaving was a bit abrupt but perhaps she had someone to meet, Shadow reasoned as he took his seat next to Shana once more, lifting her injured leg onto his lap as he inspected the dressing. The Lord did a fairly good job. Shadow made a mental note to thank him.

"I'm glad to see that you survived the night," Shadow smiled at her. "I was a bit worried that you and Valyn would have done something foolish."

Shana snorted, rolling her eyes. "Valyn? Do something foolish? I can only wish," she retorted as she shifted to a more comfortable position on the sofa, curled up comfortably with him.

Shadow snickered. "Don't we all wish he'd be foolish when it came to that," he agreed with a roguish wink. "But I was speaking more about leaving the room when you both were injured. I'm happy that you both stayed put."

"We did. I fell asleep on him," she admitted, her cheeks flushing slightly at the memory. That had been nice. more than nice. She wished it would happen again...

"Did you?" Shadow said, a little surprised that his plan had worked. Shana falling asleep on Valyn was a good step in the right direction. "Then I can count my plan a success. I knew that if you were left alone long enough something was bound to happen."

Shana shot him a wry look. "Don't get your hopes up. It was just a one-time thing. Nothing else is going to happen. Besides, why are you being all encouraging about this? If anything, I'd think you'd not want anything happening, since Valyn mentioned you two are... well, you know."

"Ah, yes, we are," Shadow shrugged. "But we have a strange understanding. Valyn is... well, he's difficult to explain. I love him and I know he returns the sentiment even if he can't say it out loud. But I also know that he will love another just as deeply and I'm sure he expects that I will as well."

He looked away from Shana for a moment, trying to find the correct words that would explain their relationship. "I knew from the beginning I couldn't have him the way the silly romance novels that the harem girls would read described. So, I'll have him the only way I can have him. I'll be his Shadow. Why would I want to be anything more? And why should I stop him from caring about you, even loving you? I can't change what's already there anymore then I can change what I feel about him. Besides, I like to see him happy and even though you two frustrate each other endlessly, I know he'd be happy with you. Exasperated, but happy."

"I think you're imagining things," Shana sighed, leaning back against the cushions and staring up at the ceiling. "I think I just plain exasperate him most of the time."

"Perhaps some of the time you do, but, I don't think I can say that I've never exasperated him or that he's never done anything to irritate me. Take our handfasting for example. I was irritated at how well he was able to persuade us. No matter how many times Valyn has used magic to win an argument, that one time will always stick out for me."

Shana gave a dry laugh at that. "See? I even inadvertently annoy you, too," she joked self-depreciatingly.

"That isn't what I meant," Shadow said quickly. "It wasn't you. It was... Well, it was the fact that I was sick and he used it against me to manipulate me into making a decision that I typically wouldn't have made in that short amount of time. Handfasting isn't as forgettable as Valyn would have you think. While it's not a true marriage, it certainly gave the impression that I felt more for you then just a friend and acquaintance had there been other people around to witness it who knew what a handfasting meant."

It also made him rather uncomfortable to know how easily Valyn had used him to solve a problem. True, he was sure Valyn had never intended any harm to either Shana or himself nor had he really thought his plan through. If Shana had fallen head over heels for him, Valyn probably wouldn't have been as elated as he fooled himself into thinking he would be. At least, Shadow would hope he wouldn't.

"I don't think he would have done it if he hadn't been desperate," Shana replied, glancing over at Shadow. Actually, she didn't know that, but she hoped not. "None of us really knew each other back then, and for all he knew, Keman and I could have left you there to fend for yourselves. Not that we really would have, but I can understand his worry. Not that that excuses him for doing what he did..." she conceded, sighing and shaking her head.

Valyn often made the least amount of logic out of anyone she knew.

"It's silly to try and reason why he did it," Shadow sighed, resting his hand on her leg. "But it worked out for the best in the end. His plan didn't necessarily work as we clearly did not fall all over each other the moment the handfasting was over. But, I dare say I'd drive you to exasperation just as often as Valyn does."

He winked at her, grinning wickedly as if to dare her to think of all the different ways he could drive her mad that didn't involve constantly butting heads with her over every little detail.

Shana couldn't help but laugh and shake her head at him. "If not more," she teased him in amusement. "Although I'm sure you drive him to exasperation as much as i do, too, so I don't mind. Although I'm not sure anyone can exasperate Valyn as much as I do." She rolled her eyes.

"And that is why you hold a special place in his heart," Shadow pointed out. "Which is a rather good step in the right direction."

"I'm not sure the special place I hold is a good one, though," she retorted ruefully, then sighed again as she leaned back against the cushions. "I guess... maybe I should just get over it. I think I just complicate everything more," she added wistfully.

Day 29: Sun Room

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