Kaworu found that he now smiled even when he was not being watched. It served no purpose. There was no one whom he desired to communicate his happiness to. However, the emotions from his time with Shinji stayed with him, even as they were pulled apart. He knew then that he would not be allowed to see Shinji again until the day had ended. At night, the chaos provided them with freedom, and Kaworu would find him then.
Although there was nothing to accomplish in Shinji's presence, he already preferred it to time alone, and sometimes to time with others. He could recall hours spent on his own, with the Lilim satisfied to move around him without ever engaging him. He had not minded, and only sought their attention when he was in need. In need of something to survive or alleviate boredom, or simply curious and in need of information. But now company was not only preferable, but it gave him something more than any tangible need. Often he knew more after speaking with them, but that was no longer all he felt.
The nurse led him to the sun room. They had taken Shinji somewhere else, and his request to accompany him had been softly denied, as he knew it would be. She commented on his lack of friends, on how Sean needed space, on how he ought to practice independence. She had said these things before. They reminded him of those past conversations, and the repeated kind sentiments that he didn't care for. Still, Kaworu found a place to sit at her command, and as the nurse followed him she picked one of the cats off the floor. Kaworu had been peripherally aware of their presence, but they had never been relevant to him.
When he sat, he was shocked when she held out the animal towards him. She indicated for him to take it, but Kaworu leaned away immediately.
"He won't bite," she chided him with a laugh. "In fact, he's very friendly. I think you'll get along." Sensing her conviction, Kaworu relaxed and allowed her to place the animal in his lap. As he held out his hand, the cat moved its head into contact with him of its own accord. He held still for several moments, only watching as it reacted to him. Kaworu laid a hand lightly over its back, where he felt the bones underneath, moving in a way so unlike a human. He thought he ought to do more, but could only remain poised with his hands hovering over it motionless. It did not seem to mind.
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Although there was nothing to accomplish in Shinji's presence, he already preferred it to time alone, and sometimes to time with others. He could recall hours spent on his own, with the Lilim satisfied to move around him without ever engaging him. He had not minded, and only sought their attention when he was in need. In need of something to survive or alleviate boredom, or simply curious and in need of information. But now company was not only preferable, but it gave him something more than any tangible need. Often he knew more after speaking with them, but that was no longer all he felt.
The nurse led him to the sun room. They had taken Shinji somewhere else, and his request to accompany him had been softly denied, as he knew it would be. She commented on his lack of friends, on how Sean needed space, on how he ought to practice independence. She had said these things before. They reminded him of those past conversations, and the repeated kind sentiments that he didn't care for. Still, Kaworu found a place to sit at her command, and as the nurse followed him she picked one of the cats off the floor. Kaworu had been peripherally aware of their presence, but they had never been relevant to him.
When he sat, he was shocked when she held out the animal towards him. She indicated for him to take it, but Kaworu leaned away immediately.
"He won't bite," she chided him with a laugh. "In fact, he's very friendly. I think you'll get along." Sensing her conviction, Kaworu relaxed and allowed her to place the animal in his lap. As he held out his hand, the cat moved its head into contact with him of its own accord. He held still for several moments, only watching as it reacted to him. Kaworu laid a hand lightly over its back, where he felt the bones underneath, moving in a way so unlike a human. He thought he ought to do more, but could only remain poised with his hands hovering over it motionless. It did not seem to mind.
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