Suzaku tried not to drop his fork. Instead, his grip tightened around it painfully. He stared with narrowed eyes at Lelouch all through the explanation, and he was pretty sure he could see exactly what was going on beneath the calm, detached veneer. Lelouch had a good reason to be so obviously furious, and with a muttered curse Suzaku looked down, frowning as if he were trying to incinerate his fish and chips with his glare.
Porky's knowledge could undermine all their attempts to organize the other patients here, seriously delaying them from taking down Landel and escaping. It could do a lot worse than that if someone showed up from their own world. After they had both sacrificed everything for the sake of ending all the conflict and hatred, to have it fall apart like that was unbearable. Not just because it would invalidate all the sins he and Lelouch had committed and all the lives that had been lost, but because exposure of the power of Geass to the world could leave it in an even worse state than it was before. True, some factions in their world knew the truth now, but letting that truth out to the wrong person at the wrong time could ruin everything.
Suzaku remembered Porky's gloating manner, his laughter that had been obvious from a few yards away, and now he knew why the man had seemed so victorious and scornful. Geass was an evil thing and Lelouch was admittedly a horrible person in the way he used it, but after what he had decided to do, letting his beloved sister die for the sake of the world's future. . . You didn't. Laugh. At Lelouch. Suzaku's knuckles were turning white where he still unthinkingly clenched the fork in his fist.
"Should I kill him?" he asked, forcing enough coldness into his tone that he managed to keep it even. In another time he might have hated how easily the words came to him, but he couldn't afford to care anymore. And besides, this wasn't just about practical considerations. It was personal. "I can wait a little while to take suspicion off you."
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Porky's knowledge could undermine all their attempts to organize the other patients here, seriously delaying them from taking down Landel and escaping. It could do a lot worse than that if someone showed up from their own world. After they had both sacrificed everything for the sake of ending all the conflict and hatred, to have it fall apart like that was unbearable. Not just because it would invalidate all the sins he and Lelouch had committed and all the lives that had been lost, but because exposure of the power of Geass to the world could leave it in an even worse state than it was before. True, some factions in their world knew the truth now, but letting that truth out to the wrong person at the wrong time could ruin everything.
Suzaku remembered Porky's gloating manner, his laughter that had been obvious from a few yards away, and now he knew why the man had seemed so victorious and scornful. Geass was an evil thing and Lelouch was admittedly a horrible person in the way he used it, but after what he had decided to do, letting his beloved sister die for the sake of the world's future. . . You didn't. Laugh. At Lelouch. Suzaku's knuckles were turning white where he still unthinkingly clenched the fork in his fist.
"Should I kill him?" he asked, forcing enough coldness into his tone that he managed to keep it even. In another time he might have hated how easily the words came to him, but he couldn't afford to care anymore. And besides, this wasn't just about practical considerations. It was personal. "I can wait a little while to take suspicion off you."