"I know," said Suzaku quietly, his chest tightening a little bit at the look on Lelouch's face. By all rights, he shouldn't care about the feelings of Euphemia's murderer, he should just care about making sure Lelouch had all the appropriate information so they could get out of here and fix everything. But there was more to it than that, and he -- he couldn't not care. He and Lelouch were the same, really, whether he liked it or not.
"They were using you, this whole time," he continued. "Even though Charles took V.V.'s Code, they needed another code. And C.C. left when she found out about Marianne, so this whole time, they've been trying to get to her through you. The conflict with the Black Knights -- all the battles, all the people who died -- they didn't care, it was just a set-up to get to C.C.
"They didn't care about anything that happened in this world, in the present," and now his voice grew harder as he tried to control his own anger, "because their plan was to erase all that. The way they saw it, the identity every person takes on and the way they interact are just lies. They wanted to destroy the world we know in favor of the World of C -- it's like what some people call the universal consciousness. That way there wouldn't be different people, there wouldn't be lies, there wouldn't be conflict. There would just be everyone's hearts and memories or, or something like that. The living could be side-by-side with the dead. Or maybe it would be better to say that the living would be the same as the dead. They -- they were just going to force this on everyone, make it as if no one was even living at all. No one would be able to follow their own desires anymore, we'd all just be the same."
He probably hadn't explained it right. But that was how he understood it, and all he knew was that it wasn't right. No one would want that world; they'd even rather have their wars. It was like Charles and Marianne had just been writing off everyone's pain, the things everyone devoted their lives to, as worthless. Like everything would have been in vain, completely pointless, and no one would have had any worth as a person. Suzaku knew he didn't want war, he wanted people to stop hurting each other, but the answer wasn't just to destroy everything that made people who they were.
Lelouch had to agree. Even this Lelouch, who was in a different mindset from the Lelouch who had defeated his parents, would understand why this was so wrong. Because he and Lelouch had the same ideals, felt the same way about the world and the people around them. So he had to. Suzaku stared at his former friend, willing him to understand.
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"They were using you, this whole time," he continued. "Even though Charles took V.V.'s Code, they needed another code. And C.C. left when she found out about Marianne, so this whole time, they've been trying to get to her through you. The conflict with the Black Knights -- all the battles, all the people who died -- they didn't care, it was just a set-up to get to C.C.
"They didn't care about anything that happened in this world, in the present," and now his voice grew harder as he tried to control his own anger, "because their plan was to erase all that. The way they saw it, the identity every person takes on and the way they interact are just lies. They wanted to destroy the world we know in favor of the World of C -- it's like what some people call the universal consciousness. That way there wouldn't be different people, there wouldn't be lies, there wouldn't be conflict. There would just be everyone's hearts and memories or, or something like that. The living could be side-by-side with the dead. Or maybe it would be better to say that the living would be the same as the dead. They -- they were just going to force this on everyone, make it as if no one was even living at all. No one would be able to follow their own desires anymore, we'd all just be the same."
He probably hadn't explained it right. But that was how he understood it, and all he knew was that it wasn't right. No one would want that world; they'd even rather have their wars. It was like Charles and Marianne had just been writing off everyone's pain, the things everyone devoted their lives to, as worthless. Like everything would have been in vain, completely pointless, and no one would have had any worth as a person. Suzaku knew he didn't want war, he wanted people to stop hurting each other, but the answer wasn't just to destroy everything that made people who they were.
Lelouch had to agree. Even this Lelouch, who was in a different mindset from the Lelouch who had defeated his parents, would understand why this was so wrong. Because he and Lelouch had the same ideals, felt the same way about the world and the people around them. So he had to. Suzaku stared at his former friend, willing him to understand.