Although Hanyuu was grateful when Arlene released her, she didn't dare take her eyes off the woman again. Her tone was evident enough that she was still displeased with what Hanyuu had said, and when Arlene brought her hand to the metal place, the spirit's eyes widened and she couldn't help but gasp.
It was that gesture that made her realize how little she knew Arlene--or anyone outside of Hinamizawa, really. What had this woman gone through during her life? Hanyuu couldn't help but wonder, but now wasn't the time for such questions. Just as Arlene had her beliefs, Hanyuu had hers. And she believed that believing was futile.
Hanyuu had believed, all those years ago, that Rika's murder had been a fluke; a mistake that shouldn't have taken place. But then she had been murdered a second time, a third time, a fourth... Next she had believed they could find a way to prevent the murder from taking place. They'd managed to figure out some of the Rules in their game against Fate, but in the end none of that had ever mattered. And then they had arrived in this place and gained a new setting and new Rules. As horrible as this place was, Hanyuu had believed the new board would give them a better chance at obtaining a bright future. But now Rika and Rena were gone.
Believing had never brought anything but more heartache.
"Believing has never done any good," the spirit replied, shaking her head quickly. "We've tried changing things. We believed, many times, that we could and would win, but look at everything now. Rika is dead," she flinched slightly at the word, but didn't stop, "and now you've told me that Rena is, too. Two of the people that I cared most about are dead and nothing can change that now, so there's no sense in wishing, or... or hoping that things will get better, because this is it."
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It was that gesture that made her realize how little she knew Arlene--or anyone outside of Hinamizawa, really. What had this woman gone through during her life? Hanyuu couldn't help but wonder, but now wasn't the time for such questions. Just as Arlene had her beliefs, Hanyuu had hers. And she believed that believing was futile.
Hanyuu had believed, all those years ago, that Rika's murder had been a fluke; a mistake that shouldn't have taken place. But then she had been murdered a second time, a third time, a fourth... Next she had believed they could find a way to prevent the murder from taking place. They'd managed to figure out some of the Rules in their game against Fate, but in the end none of that had ever mattered. And then they had arrived in this place and gained a new setting and new Rules. As horrible as this place was, Hanyuu had believed the new board would give them a better chance at obtaining a bright future. But now Rika and Rena were gone.
Believing had never brought anything but more heartache.
"Believing has never done any good," the spirit replied, shaking her head quickly. "We've tried changing things. We believed, many times, that we could and would win, but look at everything now. Rika is dead," she flinched slightly at the word, but didn't stop, "and now you've told me that Rena is, too. Two of the people that I cared most about are dead and nothing can change that now, so there's no sense in wishing, or... or hoping that things will get better, because this is it."