DAX's tone was so familiar, it brought back memories of time spent idly at Cerenkov, their days during the War, and how much he wanted that right now, something familiar, to see DAX as he knew him again, one eye and head feelers in smooth motion. ZEX closed his eyes... if he heard DAX's voice at least he could mentally provide the proper image.
"Yes, I had something of a reputation for it." This DAX wouldn't know what he was talking about, but ZEX wanted him to so badly that he said it anyway, kept going and trying to capture the light, teasing tone he used to have around him. "Being uncooperative, among other things. I'm not sure if they were all deserved..."
A pang of doubt, frustration at his inability to find the surface and swim again, still suffocating. Of course DAX had his best interests at heart, he'd always been loyal to him; even when everyone else turned against him, DAX had stayed by his side. Doubting him made his chest tighten with the feeling that something was wrong, there had to be some other source of doubt, it couldn't be DAX. Something as mutable and intangible as his memories, that wasn't as solid as the rhythm of DAX's voice.
Stumbling and still sinking further. He held onto DAX's hand tightly, looking down. "I don't want to be here anymore..." ZEX said, softly after some time. "I don't want... to be Max. I want to go home." He shut his eyes, mind in turmoil, doubts and memories shrieking endlessly at each other to try to overpower the other. "I want things to be normal again."
And even then, that still wasn't exactly right, wasn't all he wanted... "I want him to come with me." He'd spent so much time capturing him, he could not let him go now. There had to be a way to make DAX understand. "He's... everytime I see him, there's this feeling I can't describe, there's this desire, after such a long time waiting, he was the most beautiful human I'd ever seen. Twenty years and my miracle human, and I found him here somehow, and to lose him again, I can't..." Desperately trying to somehow convince DAX, put their relationship in words. "He means so much to me, my most precious treasure, the star of my menagerie of monsters, and..."
The sentiment reworded, and ZEX trembled a little. "I don't want to lose him."
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"Yes, I had something of a reputation for it." This DAX wouldn't know what he was talking about, but ZEX wanted him to so badly that he said it anyway, kept going and trying to capture the light, teasing tone he used to have around him. "Being uncooperative, among other things. I'm not sure if they were all deserved..."
A pang of doubt, frustration at his inability to find the surface and swim again, still suffocating. Of course DAX had his best interests at heart, he'd always been loyal to him; even when everyone else turned against him, DAX had stayed by his side. Doubting him made his chest tighten with the feeling that something was wrong, there had to be some other source of doubt, it couldn't be DAX. Something as mutable and intangible as his memories, that wasn't as solid as the rhythm of DAX's voice.
Stumbling and still sinking further. He held onto DAX's hand tightly, looking down. "I don't want to be here anymore..." ZEX said, softly after some time. "I don't want... to be Max. I want to go home." He shut his eyes, mind in turmoil, doubts and memories shrieking endlessly at each other to try to overpower the other. "I want things to be normal again."
And even then, that still wasn't exactly right, wasn't all he wanted... "I want him to come with me." He'd spent so much time capturing him, he could not let him go now. There had to be a way to make DAX understand. "He's... everytime I see him, there's this feeling I can't describe, there's this desire, after such a long time waiting, he was the most beautiful human I'd ever seen. Twenty years and my miracle human, and I found him here somehow, and to lose him again, I can't..." Desperately trying to somehow convince DAX, put their relationship in words. "He means so much to me, my most precious treasure, the star of my menagerie of monsters, and..."
The sentiment reworded, and ZEX trembled a little. "I don't want to lose him."