Day 34: Lunch

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Yuffie bounced all the way through collecting her lunch, all the way to a good seat- one with a nice view of the whole cafeteria, which was something she'd been missing out on during the past day or so that she'd been stuck in the Institute- and hell, she even bounced into her seat.

A good mood? No, really?

Despite the occasional blip, talking to Sagara had been awesome. He was a fun guy; he wasn't a prude, didn't have a stick shoved so far up his ass it was poking out his eyeballs, and he'd actually had a conversation with her. One that hadn't revolved around doom, gloom or how much life sucked. If she could find other people like that and keep in touch with Sagara, maybe there was a little hope for this place.

After a quick gulp of pink lemonade, Yuffie settled to munching through her food and keeping an eye on the door.

[Waiting for Dean, I think? :x]

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[screwthegods]

And there it was. Kenren had reached across the table, and Homura for one had no intention of stopping the man. Even if he was wrong about the intentions of Sanzo's words, there was no disputing the cruelty they contained.

But the talking sparked more than anger. In the back of Homura's mind, he couldn't help but wonder how much of what Sanzo said might have been true. Filth. Had something Homura done earned him the title?

It didn't matter, however. Homura could say nothing to prevent the harm happening now. He could only hope to ease the damage. "Kenren's choices are his own. And if this Hakkai person understood him, he'd understand the reasons." Whatever they were, and whatever Homura had become.

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Kenren thankfully, had had a lot of experience dealing with getting beaten down recently enough before he'd come here and gave Sanzo's hand squeezing his wrist nothing more than a cursory scornful glance before looking back at the priest with eyes narrowed.

He forced down the wash of anger and disgust at himself from that irritating bit that wasn't himself because he knew that whoever Gojyo was, he wouldn't have liked Homura, but then again, Kenren didn't really like Gojyo all that much.

"At least Homura had the guts to fight against a corrupt Heaven," he said harshly, "rather than following blindly like the rest of the foolish world. Hakkai, the person Hakkai was when I knew him best, would have agreed with me." And then quite probably disliked Homura anyway and the clash of personalities would have been terrifying to see. "Funny, the four of us did the same thing once, but I guess Konzen had more spine than you do."

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Sanzo gave a snort of disdain at Homura. Even now, the god couldn't stay out of other people's business. "Fuck off. Stop acting like you know any of us. Last I checked, you can't even remember being here the past few weeks, so just shut the hell up."

The monk went on. "Kenren, I don't give a flying fuck if you or Homura thought Heaven was corrupt. I don't care what Konzen did."

Part lie. If that was supposedly a past life, a tiny part of him was dying to know.

"And Homura, you are a lying piece of shit. For going against a corrupt heaven, you're pretty damn corrupt yourself. I believe one of your tenets was to take what you want, and it was just someone's choice how they got fucked over."

The monk cut himself off on that subject before that went further, and he gave anything anyway. As far as he knew, Kenren didn't know anything about what Homura'd done to Sanzo so far, other than that one hicky. And even that, he didn't know who'd put that on him.

If the monk had it his way, he'd never find out.

If Kenren didn't remove his hands soon, Sanzo was going to have to hit him in a few choice pressure points. Not that he was going to be too sore about having to do it.

It was just Solitary he was trying to avoid. He'd gotten lucky that one time with Qui-Gon opening the door, but if the Jedi hadn't appeared...

He'd have started out on the second floor with no weapons, and blind as a bat. Sanzo wanted to avoid disadvantages like that, if he could.

Sanzo's eyes flared at the mention of Hakkai.

"Hakkai and Tenpou aren't one and the same. I've said this before, you aren't Gojyo. Hakkai wouldn't have done it, if it meant signing his ass away to him." Maybe here, Homura was a bit more harmless, but who knew what it'd been like when the dipshit wasn't on that leash. Just how much damage could he do?

If Kenren wanted to be an idiot, and act as if he were the authority on them, just because he had some of Gojyo's memories, then Sanzo was going to have to bring that illusion down.

The priest continued. "Tell me, just how certain are you that those implanted memories can be trusted? It figures that you're blind enough to take them that at face value. But you seem like you've been so desperate for something familiar that you've forgotten who implanted them. How can you even tell which is true or false?"

[screwthegods]

What could Homura possibly interject into this anymore? It had gotten so personal, still about him, but a him he didn't remember. Meeting and remeeting people had been frustrating enough, but this was easily worse. He had rebelled against the Heavens? And potentially worse were Sanzo's words. Was that really how Homura had acted? If it was, he'd certainly become more godlike.

Yet even Sanzo's words implied more choice than Homura had ever had. Didn't they?

The monk was still spitting venom at Kenren, and by this time, even Homura had realized that Hakkai must have been an incarnation of Tenpou Gensui, while Sanzo was that of Konzen. Kenren had mentioned "the four"--though who the fourth was remained unknown--and their own betrayal of the gods. Was that their punishment? Reincarnation?

Much more looming at the moment, however, were nurses who had taken notice of the group. Homura didn't like the glares they were getting, but at the same time, remained unsure of how to draw Kenren away.

"Kenren." Homura kept his voice low, and his eyes on the staff. "This discussion might be better delayed until another time."

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In that moment, he wanted to hurt Sanzo, really hurt him for being an insufferable prick who thought he knew everything, who would dare to say that he didn't know his own people as well as he did. Tenpou was his best friend, the one he'd trust at his back no matter what, and Hakkai was the same for Gojyo.

"I've signed my ass away to no-one, priest," he growled, eyes flashing with anger. He was working with Homura out of his own free will and could leave just as easily if things didn't work out. The only loyalty he had was to himself and Tenpou.

But there was that thread of doubt there as Sanzo continued speaking. He didn't trust this place at all and just because some things matched up, didn't mean that they were all true. And the differences still threw him. "Hakkai confirmed what I remembered," he said coolly though, refusing to give Sanzo any kind of satisfaction from having him admit anything.

Slowly he let the priest go, pulling back, expression a disinterested mask. He wasn't worth getting sedated for in the end.

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"Yes, because he could confirm every single memory," Sanzo wasn't having any of it.

He'd had enough of this. He had only so much patience left. He'd had enough of Homura, he'd had enough of Kenren. Had enough of Kenren trying to excuse his actions away.

The monk didn't know how long he could stick around and not get sent to solitary at this point.

Sanzo's jaw tightened, and he pinned Homura with a nasty glare.

"This isn't over," he said. "I don't care if you've lost your memory. This doesn't change a thing."

A promise and a threat, rolled into one. Sanzo had a round or two with Homura's name all over it.

And Kenren.....

There was a small, cold pit in his stomach, one he didn't ever expect to feel. It took a moment to identify it, but when Sanzo did, he wasn't happy to find that it was betrayal. Pure and simple. Somehow, in this short of a time, he'd just started to accept having Kenren's dumb ass around.....

And Kenren had turned around and done this.

He honestly shouldn't even be surprised. Sanzo, of all people, knew better than to actually trust anyone. This shouldn't have been any different.

The monk treated that fledgling emotion with the same ruthlessness he'd shown Kougaiji's assassins. The beginning sense of betrayal was stomped down, to nothing, leaving only the same anger, impatience, and the drive to get the sutra back. There wasn't room for anything else.

Sanzo gave Kenren a frigid look.

"So you're willing to overlook the obvious. A voluntary blind man." There was only disgust in Sanzo's voice. "You know, the thing that surprises me the most is that you'd sell yourself off like this."

The monk turned.

"...But then again, maybe it doesn't surprise me that much."

He vanished into the crowded cafeteria, leaving them with only his untouched tray and the toppled chair.