"You had reasons you thought killing me was right?!" For a moment, incredulity and outrage blasted through his denial. "Killing shouldn't ever be right! It's awful even when it's necessary!" Once, what felt a lifetime ago, he would have fought against even that idea, too, but then he'd met people like Magnius and Kvar, people like Vharley, people who wouldn't stop hurting people so long as they were alive.
But his outrage could only hold out so long before his mind circled around right back to the start, unable to just let go. Kratos hadn't backed off, hadn't retracted his claim, was still referring to himself obliquely as the man in his story, the man who was Lloyd's-
His mind jerked away again. Lloyd had to drag in a harsh, ragged breath, on the verge of panic. Panic as everything he knew about himself was threatened. If this was true, then who was he-?
It's not true! It's not! Dammit, then why couldn't he just let it drop?! Why did he always have to believe that there was truth in everything he heard!?
"If you- If he- If my father had found me, why wouldn't he tell me? Didn't he care that he'd found his son? You- He would have had months! Why wouldn't he say something?!"
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But his outrage could only hold out so long before his mind circled around right back to the start, unable to just let go. Kratos hadn't backed off, hadn't retracted his claim, was still referring to himself obliquely as the man in his story, the man who was Lloyd's-
His mind jerked away again. Lloyd had to drag in a harsh, ragged breath, on the verge of panic. Panic as everything he knew about himself was threatened. If this was true, then who was he-?
It's not true! It's not! Dammit, then why couldn't he just let it drop?! Why did he always have to believe that there was truth in everything he heard!?
"If you- If he- If my father had found me, why wouldn't he tell me? Didn't he care that he'd found his son? You- He would have had months! Why wouldn't he say something?!"