Did Kotetsu not understand that Barnaby would have rather had these sorts of bombs dropped by someone he knew and trusted, rather than a professional acquaintance like Petrov? At least he sounded apologetic, although Barnaby couldn't tell whether he was genuinely sorry or if he was just sorry he got caught burying his head under the sand.
"At this rate, I might feel like you're still hiding things from me even after we've talked," Barnaby reminded him. "How can I rely on a partner who keeps me in the dark about my own life as long as it's convenient for him? How can I know you're not going to just put off telling me something else because I'm already upset?"
He wanted to trust Kotetsu, so much that it almost hurt. But he'd already been blinded by his own adoration of the man more than once. Part of him was frightened that he was doomed to repeat this exhausting cycle as long as they were partners.
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"At this rate, I might feel like you're still hiding things from me even after we've talked," Barnaby reminded him. "How can I rely on a partner who keeps me in the dark about my own life as long as it's convenient for him? How can I know you're not going to just put off telling me something else because I'm already upset?"
He wanted to trust Kotetsu, so much that it almost hurt. But he'd already been blinded by his own adoration of the man more than once. Part of him was frightened that he was doomed to repeat this exhausting cycle as long as they were partners.